"The stars may fall, but God's promises will stand and be fulfilled."
- J.I Packer

Friday, April 20, 2018

Mosaic Mess



Feeling relentless
In the middle of my sadness
How does one piece back together a broken heart?
The world makes heartbreak caused by someone else seem as if it's the worst thing in the world,
When in reality the worst heartbreak is caused by oneself


Hot tears run rapidly down my face
I stare blankly into the shining stars in the sky
As I feel my heart drop and break into miniature pieces
Oh my dear heart is in distress
Without any consolation in sight
A cloud of torment seizes my mind
Can I make a beautiful mosaic out my brokenness?

Falling into my knees
I'm pleading for one more chance
One more chance to redeem myself
I don't want to be a prisoner of the pain within me anymore
I know I'm a mess, full of flaws, I know I've messed up so much
I don't know who I am anymore
The person that stares back in the mirror, isn't someone I recognize

Breathing isn't enough to be considered as living
Just like smiling doesn't equal happiness
I could be dying and still be laughing

I just want to be okay
I just want to breathe again
I just want to be able to have true happiness
I just want....inner peace

Maybe one day, soon enough, I'll be able to find it all
I beg for strength to keep on fighting
To see the past the pain and follow the light
May I see the good through the darkness that overwhelms me
Until then I'll be on be a beautiful broken mess